TheBroodingEncounter

||"When a life altering event occurs, people remember"||
......however, PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) is real...it just comes to different people in different ways... Some live in denial, while others in fear of that moment for the rest of their lives.

Certain moments in life are so damn shocking and disgusting that you "secretly wish to go back and fix it" and "do not wish to go back and face it again", at the same.

It doesn't matter now, I guess.
Reading all those crime fighting novels and watching "mugging gone wrong" series, seem unreal to some extent.

Behaviorally speaking, after a distressing event occurs, you tend to play every possible scenario leading to that event, in your mind, which could have saved you from the trouble in the first place.
You start to obsess over the event so much so, that a part of you blames yourself for being at the wrong place at the wrong time.

The first few seconds of the incident, leave you stupefy, no matter how brave heart-ed you are, followed by hours of emotional turmoil. It is never about the things or possession you lost in the process, but the emotional attachment you have with them... It is not the physical pain but the unpredictability of the moment and the nerve-wrecking, that affect the most!!
Moreover, the tendency of self-doubt and procrastination becomes regular.

The worst part about being a victim is remembering each second of the incident vividly.
...and I am still trying to find the best part about it as they say that everything in life happens for a reason...
May be, one fine day I will wake up and won't mind remembering it, won't mind bearing it with me...
...... till that day.........

......
StayBlessed!
...and StaySafe!

CoLoUrS

People always say that, you know you are in love when the colour red starts to captivate you...
..Yes! Sure... when my oxytocin level will rise, suddenly the color of my blood will attract me!! Honestly, if that happens, chances of me being a vampire will be more than just being lovesick.

...I see the point of having a favourite colour when you are experiencing affection for someone, for that matter...but fail to understand the obsession with red!!

No one looks so happy when it comes out of a wound; rather try to put an end by stitching or capping a band-aid over it...

.....You know what! Don't read that!!When you put it thaaat way; it is not so appealing..

But coming back to the obsession part, I can assure you that no matter how much you fight it, hormones have a strange way of getting any work done by you!!
I used to hate! Hate! Green!!! Not even Dislike first, per se...Straight Hate!! a very negative feeling one can say...
And it is strange because of all the environmental issues and "save green" logos around, I know it's a risky colour to hate; but still I never particularly liked it..

One fine day, every green thing started to sooth my eyes..
I started loving it...not even Like first, per se...Straight out Love!!

Just because I saw a pretty boy wearing a Green shirt, and just because I stared at him for hours and hours (in this case till he passed by me), doesn't mean I Have to like the colour itself!!
But ...I did..
...still, do...
...love the color; not the staring part!!

All of this sound so very 'high school musical'...
Trust me..it did then, as well...
...and the funny part is, I didn't even try to fight it.....

Any green shirt-ed guy take me to that time of my life; and I tell you, it's more than you think!!
..Why the hell so many guys wear green now a days, I don't know!!

There was this incident last week, when I saw someone standing in the middle of the road with his scooter and so very many papers scattered around him. Now, generally, I would not have given attention to such a situation but his green shirt caught my eyes.
Not a horrible human being, as I am, I stopped and helped him take his scooter to a near sidewalk and collected his papers. As I handed him the pile of paper, he thanked me and was about to say his name when out of nowhere I interrupted him and said, "You're welcome. Do take care"....and went on my way..
He seemed a little startled but I know he got over it pretty soon as he had a lot on his plate then!!

My utter ill-mannered attitude had nothing to do with that person; I just did not want his name...
There is only one name, which I correspond to any Green thing, and did not want it to be over-written by any other.

Let it be, what it is..
..Why take the risk of ruining it..!


StayBlessed!


(P.s - No, my favourite Marvel character is not Green Lantern though)

#A_March_Day

It was one of those days when the wind was crazy and the clouds refused to acknowledge the sun.
Everyone suddenly became very busy, they were determined not to allow anything inside....houses and offices were never so quickly caged....mere wind did it..

HE came and sat on a branch...one, which was most vulnerable, and most turbulent...yet he sat in peace, enjoying the swing...
...within moments the adjoining construction site disbursed a cloud of dust..I did not lose his site, waiting for him to fly away...
....he didn't...

It seemed that he was enjoying the ups and downs...for a second or two he looked at me, as we were the only two souls there, crazy enough to be outside..

I pointed the camera trying to search for any inert feelings, but he never looked my way.

At the end, the branch became too wild for him to hold on. The ride he was enjoying, eventually had reached the threshold of its existence...
....he came near me for a moment and in the next, went on his way, probably mocking me of being the more insane one, of the two !!

Once upon a time; the storm and the smell of rain clouds, used to invoke a covert affection in me...
......that was before...it was lost, I knew it all along...yet tried to reach out to that sense of elusion....!!

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||Sometimes I think I have felt everything I am ever gonna feel. And from here on out, I am not gonna feel anything new. Just lesser version of what I have already felt.|| ~ HER

--------HE was right!!-----------

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StayBlessed!