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There's a subtle difference between reply and conversation, that only words can convey!

Art of conversation is rare these days.

So if you find someone with whom u can actually converse, from nonsense to necessary, don't loose them!

#StayBlessed

The unknown unknowns ❣️🔭

Day 1

I just refuse to believe!

Day 5

I find myself asking how everyone seems to believe such an absurd thing.

Day 7

It has been a week and I am beginning to afraid that it is not just a rumor, and the pictures are not photo-shopped.

Day 11

The messages left even before you did. I was so angry with you for deleting everything that I never talked to you after that. How can I convince myself that the conversation was real?

Day 14

Even after two weeks, you continue to remain somewhere else. I however am starting to hate you because if what the authorities are saying is true then you are selfish!…and if what people are saying is true then I do not know whom to be angry with! I could write to you but the fear that you won’t reply is stopping me!

Day 18

Those few lines were all I had, and you were selfish to take them away!

Day 21

It is said that it takes 21 days to make something a habit; it is wrong!

I just can't believe that how can you make your entire family go through something that they already faced once before, including you!

Had I wrote more often to you, would that have helped? May be.....May be not!

We will never know!

Day 23

I am still not sure about how mind works, but those self musings of yours kept me afloat to certain extent. They were one of my safety valves.

You always solved a situation with logic and mathematics! What is your explanation for this? What is the correlation and what is the causation of it!?!?

"The mere observation of a phenomenon inevitably changes that phenomenon". isn't it?
I am observing, yet the phenomenon of your non-existence is not changing.

Day 25

Your eyes were always up above the world so high that I can only hope that you are one of the diamonds in the sky.

Without sharing a physical space you shared the absolute mental space with so many like me!

Thank you!

I know your energy is now travelling through different quantum realms and you are having the time of your life. I hope you find better people there!

Day 28

Letting go is hard. I know you would say that,

"time takes over eventually" 

but I know you also said that

"we can co-exist in different planes" 

and so I will, from now on, assume that you are in the parallel universe and I hope you find a way to do what you love. I may not be able to see you but I hope you find a way to look over your loved ones.

Day 30

People say that you are at peace. What they don't know is that you are not at rest. The list of dreams that you could not do in this plane, I pray that you find some way to carry them out, wherever you are, so that finally you can rest.

Last one month has not been the same and in a way it never will. I will keep your quotes closer to me but stop talking about you, because "ultimately that is what is suppose to happen".

Time will pass, routine will take over our lives and you will be forgotten.

You never deserved that.

You deserved better.

“As long as you were,

I was.

Now just in my memories,

I come alive.

Like that shadow,

But

Just flickers.

Time doesn’t move here,

It’s beautiful mother,

It’s forever.” ~ SSR

p.s. you owe me the “book exchange”. I will make sure we do that, even if it is on another realm, under some other stars and within another reality!

Sometime your heart needs a little more time to accept what the mind already knows!

#StayBlessed

Places to be!

|| Go to the terrace,

Look up the sky,

Read the clouds,

And imagine you too can fly.

If terrace is not an option,

Opt for a balcony,

Observe the lonely roads,

They tell stories uncanny.

If you do not have balcony,

Worry not there's more,

Watch travel videos online,

Though virtual but for a second you too can explore.

If all the things fail,

Turn off all the lights and hear jazz,

Feel the touch of music,

And relax those spaz.

After a while,

You can see through dark,

It has its own tale,

It will let you know if you wish to hark!

Nature ventures as usual,

While people sigh,

Even if everything is closed,

Look at the world through your inner eye ||

#StayBlessed

The Eluded Slumber!

#StayBlessed

#ProtectYourPeace

To be or not to be!

Loving is easy.

I don't know why people fight it.

It makes you a kinder and a gentler person.

Loving someone without any expectation is one of the powerful feelings in the world, not because any cheesy movie dialogue said so, but for the simple reason that it just feels good to look at the person you love and know that they are happy! In addition to that, you know that you are also being loved, may not be in the conventional way that everyone talks about but in an emotionally intimate way that no one can expect!

It's a good feeling..

Love will always tend to bring out the better side of you..

The side that knows what should and should not be done..

If it is bringing out a bitter side, it can not be love.

It can be any number of things but not love. Never love!

If you are realizing that just thinking about it making your blood boil and making you throw things, it is not love.

However our society made us believe that that's the feeling of passion. It's not. Passion is as misunderstood as love.

Destroying mental peace is neither passion nor love.

Understanding that, may take time.

Make sure that when finally you understand that, not much is destroyed so that the love and respect that was valued in the first place can be restored!

Do not impose or expect that the love that was, will be exactly the same, exactly the same moment you walk in again!

Love doesn't change, expression of love does with time and circumstances; so do people, to survive.

Make sure the goodness still exist, the admiration still exists, the care still exists.....As for the rest of it, if time took it away, it will be brought back!

Distance yourself from people who bring out any uneasy negative feeling in you..Give time, it takes over everything..

But never be indifferent. 

Trying to feel nothing is much more painful than pain itself.

Don't be the person you despise.

I wrote today because for last few days, for whatever reasons, I can feel negativity in me. With everything going around, the death of a favorite person did not help the situation. 

It's silly..It's stupid..Be what may...It's what I am feeling...

And I realized that this is the only place where I can be myself!

p.s. I have started this blog in a whimsy, few years back but eventually it had turned into my sandbag. I am a kind of person who holds every emotion in, which only comes out in writing. And more than anything else, I hold grudges, that's just me. But the problem lies with the fact that the grudges I hold affect me more since I do not do anything with them. The most I can do is write a long and wide message venting out just 1% of it and that's just it.

For me, loving comes easy, as long as it is not myself!

That's bad.

I know!

Whatever I write here, are my very own feelings and more often than not I speak to myself as I have no misconception of being sorted. Moreover, when I say that I have faced difficulties and sure will face again, I don't mean that no one else has. It's just that it's my journey hence it's my faulty narrative!

#StayBlessed

What is not a depression!

Getting sad over a missed promotion, crying over a fight with a friend or a few sleepless nights is NOT depression. 

Depression is not synonymous to being sad, frustrated, agitated, or just simply the inability to express yourself.

Dr.Winch of Psychology Today, in his Ted Talk tried to dehaze some misconceptions about the two.

Sadness is a normal human emotion. We’ve all experienced it and we all will again. Sadness is usually triggered by a difficult, hurtful, challenging, or disappointing event, experience, or situation. In other words, we tend to feel sad about something. This also means that when that something changes, when our emotional hurt fades, when we’ve adjusted or gotten over the loss or disappointment, our sadness remits.


Depression is an abnormal emotional state, a mental illness that affects our thinking, emotions, perceptions, and behaviors in pervasive and chronic ways. When we’re depressed we feel sad about everything. Depression does not necessarily require a difficult event or situation, a loss, or a change of circumstance as a trigger. In fact, it often occurs in the absence of any such triggers. Most importantly, the people experiencing the illness mostly seem perfect on paper as far as their lives are concern. They would even admit this is true—and yet they still feel horrible. You can not just snap out of it, no matter how circumstances around you change until and unless you consult a doctor. 

It is an illness, you need to be treated and you have to accept that. 

Just as every sign of flu is not covid-19, every sign of sadness is not depression. Having said that just as it is suggested that you need to treat your flu right away, if you think you are sad or if you know someone who is sad and going through tough times, help them and make them feel at home.

Depression is NOT as trivial as diarrhoea and should NOT be used callously to describe simply ANY unhappy state of mind. It's not something you can just shake off your own, if you did I am glad but dear you were not depressed..You just needed time! 

Before we deal with depression, let us make sure that we know what's NOT depression.
Talking and opening up helps so consult a doctor anyway and if you know someone, help them express themselves if they can't.

A little talking goes a long way! 😊

#StayHappy

#StayHealthy

#StayBlessed

DAYBREAK

I should have written earlier I know but I am afraid…afraid of the uncertainty of this year.

The fear of loosing has gained its momentum which in turn made us aware of how fragile we are as human beings and thus seizing and loving the moment should be the only criteria for living!

"Do what you love and if you know what you are doing and why you are doing that, then there's nothing to be afraid of!", SSR.

The only certainty is the Big Bang in this ever unsettling and uncertain galaxy.

"Appreciate what you have but never be content with it because that will hinder your quest towards excellence", SRK

Half of our lives are made of such insignificant moments which are not at all planned and unexpected.

The rest half is comprised of the crazy in us!

Don't just live the moment...Live in the moment. 

Every morning brings with it, the essence of potential that it holds!

Wear a mask.

Take care of your peace.

#StayBlessed

I Am All Kinds Of Grey

There's difference between human beings and computers which mean that the former can't be judged on the basis of the language the latter speaks..There's no "all black" or "all white". We are not made of zeroes and ones...

We are everything in between...

Much like history, the color grey teaches us that a character or a person is a combination of good and evil; which part you allow to be dominant on yourself, decides your trait in the pages of history!

#StayBlessed

The Dreamcatcher Song

|| Dreams come..Dreams go.

Some high..Some low.

Keep me close..And I'll make sure,

No more painful dreams..That you have to endure.

Even if I be away..I'll make the dreams sway!

Worry not..You will get through,

I'll make all your heart's desire..Come true.||

#StayBlessed

Quarantine Cooking

I'm not much of a cook but this lockdown has taught us that necessity is the mother of everything.
Here's some recipes that I tried and turned out alright...
I'm not a big fan of sharing photos of food but since lockdown is over(and most people can eat what they like), I thought this would be a good time to flaunt!

p.s. I am not going to make some of these again unless there's another lockdown ( I hope NEVER) ------------------------------------------
1) Grilled chicken with mashed potatoes, green peas and boiled corn.

2) Prawn fried rice

3) Kalakand -- Recipe from Banglar Rannaghor

4) Pancake with honey and banana

5) Jhal shooji (bengali style Upma) -- Recipe from Bong Eats

6) Alu kabli (boiled potato and chana chat)

7) Kachagolla (Chhena balls/sandesh) can't think of any translation that will do justice to it -- Recipe from Banglar Rannaghor

#stayblessed