TheSantaDeal!!

Santa Claus can not really come if there is no chimney in a house or so I thought, because the only other explanation of Him not coming would be that I had not been a good enough girl, for the past year.
Christmas always attracted me, I am not a very big fan of winter or cold but a decorated Christmas tree with ribbons and bells and socks and candles has always made me jump up and down.
I will any day prefer sweat to shiver, yet Christmas brought out an uncanny happy side of me..........

I have always decorated my room in anticipation that Santa will come with my gift; the gift that I have always known, could not be afforded as far as a middle class family goes ( that included one earning member and seven others who depended on him).

There has always been this part of me which I thought should not come out else people will mock.
I was not accepted with open arms by many of my family members initially because of being born as a girl (and of-course they wanted a boy) and I was made aware of it since childhood by them; so all my life I tried to be as less a girl as possible in front of everyone (in behavioral aspects at least); and so my heart's desire, till date, is only known by those hundreds of Christmas eves when I wished for my gift from Santa Claus.

As age increased I made peace with the fact that Santa Clause never comes and the real Santa Clauses are parents, who go out of their way to fulfill every desire.

So when my friends and cousins used to brag about how Santa came the previous night and left a gift for them, I simply used to smile and say, "My sock was not big enough for the gift I wanted" (Apparently one has to wish for a gift by standing in front of the decorated socks)..

It is waayyy past 12 o'clock IST, so it is officially Christmas here. Like every year, my room is decorated, no matter how meager it is, it has a sock in which I asked for this year's gift.

.....unlike all the previous years, this time I did not ask for anything new; but wished to get back everything and everyone those are lost by me...........(...and probably this is the first time I shared what I wished for)

You will be the first to know if I get it!
...till then!

Have a Merry Christmas!!
May God Bless All You Lovely People Out There!

#StayBlessed!